Hello, everyone! It’s been what, a year? Two years? Too long is how long. Anyways, I’m back! (well, sort of.) I’ve come to open up about some things that I had dreaded talking about.
For the past two years, I had been dealing with anxiety because of a video I had seen on YouTube.
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As the days went by, I began having these constant thoughts in the back of my head while I was animating that a hacker was watching me and taking my files under my nose. They kept getting worse and worse and I had eventually reached my limit. I stopped animating, drawing, composing music, writing and pretty much everything on my computer for good.
Months went by and I had begun to grow paranoid over anything that had to do with the internet or related hackers. I no longer felt safe, it even got to the point to wanting to take my own life.
But before I had completely lost it, I reached out to some friends and my family got to help. Eventually within a year, I slowly got comfortable with my computer and got back into the things I thought I had lost forever. And now that brings us up to here. I am glad that I finally got the courage to share this with you guys, because it hadn’t been easy.
Over the course of time since I had been gone, many things had happened, I became an adult, I started attending college (which wasn’t easy, the first year ), adjusting to new life, plans for future jobs/careers, and I met a beautiful woman who cares so much about me.
As for animation, I’ve switched to a more efficient software, Adobe Flash CS4. I’ve been struggling a lot with getting the rigs to animate, but I’ll get the jist of it (somehow).
Now the big question, am I still gonna be active here? Maybe. That’s for me to decide. But until then, have a great day! It’s been a wild ride.